if i'm going to have a journal
don't i need a life to write about?

but no, i have all of these FEELINGS
EMOTIONS

I'M JUST SO GODDAMN INTERESTING!

i drank your tears and made you breathe me in except only i'm talking to myself and my toenail polish is chipping and you make me happy and i'm glad let's spread the happiness like you spread your legs(oops not really) but i have to bring my wounded cat mister harblz and i dont like josh tyson very much he is an angry person and i love eric but i cant be with him and really i just want to be by myself and free and alive and i am but i want to move because i am a nomad warrior child woman maiden mother crone gia gia gia my real last name is dead leaves

I HAVE THIS FUCKING DISORDER AND IT IS SO ABSOLUTELY CONSUMES MY LIFE
NOT THE ACTUAL DISORDER BUT EVERYTHING INSIDE OF IT
ALL OF THESE EMOTIONS AND SHIT GFU
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i feel so hopeless
and angry
and anxious
and sad
i want to commit suicide, but i wont.

its just my feelings are so incredibly INTENSE

i'll miss you.
i have a straight path ahead of me
i know what i want and who i want to be

the only thing i need is myself
and i have it.

here we go.
i will miss you.
the story of love
is hello and goodbye