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kitschaster wrote in
panic_anxiety
- December 7th, 12:33
Hey all!
After avoiding therapy for so many years, just recently I finally decided to get some help. I've been suffering from Depression, Paranoia, and Anxiety since my pre-teens, but I never believed it to actually be an issue. No no, never that, especially since I was freaking out for so long, not making friends, having severe mood swings, and thinking that somebody was going to kill me every time I closed my eyes to sleep. No no. *ahem* The gist of a longer explanation I should say.
So I have been seeing a therapist for the last few weeks, and today I had a doctor's appointment. I'm kinda miffed by the diagnosis, because my issue isn't actually hearing voices, it's the manic freak outs, the panic attacks, the racing thoughts, inability to cope with it, lack of sleep, poor diet, and the whole shebang. But of course, I had to tell him that I have heard voices, and sometimes still do.
So I get labeled Schizoaffective. *bam!* I have never heard of this. Ever. Schizophrenia, yes, but not that. And the voices don't affect the way I cope with my emotional stress. At all. And so of course I turned down the meds, and opted for full therapy.
Either way, I came here for the panic attacks and problems with sleep I've been having, due to the PTSD my therapist diagnosed me with, considering my childhood, and the last year of my life where I lived with a "friend" who used me, abused me, and then disposed of me. Run-on sentences! Long story. Long story short, I was able to somewhat cope before her, and afterwards I was trying to kill myself. Ugh. I won't get into her now, as she gives me horrible nightmares.
God, I'm so sorry for the rambly.
Anyway, has anyone every heard of EMDR therapy? I'll be doing this in the next couple of months. Sounds pretty interesting. I had no clue this stuff existed. Any thoughts or experiences? Does it work?
And HAI ALL! <3